sharp.

If you know Gord personally, you know what a sharp tack he is, which is why it's so hard to see what's happening to him now.

Since Monday morning, he's become more & more confused. Muddy. His timelines are screwy, he's saying things that don't make a whole lot of sense & he just doesn't seem *here*.  This morning they did a CT scan of his brain to see if the confusion was caused by his main anti-rejection medication. Apparently Cyclosporine can cause something called 'Press' (I think? I am zombie brain) which causes lots of confusion in some people. He was taken off it yesterday just in case. The Dr came to tell us that from what he can make out of the scan, the Cyclosporine isn't the cause of confusion. When I asked what it could be, he told me Gord's kidneys & liver aren't functioning properly (his creatine levels are starting to go way back up) which can cause brain confusion also, he's on very high doses of steroids, which could be the cause. When I asked if he'd be put back on the Cyclosporine, the answer was 'No, not right now.' I was also told that that's a big deal, since it's the main anti-rejection drug.

I think it's time to get pretty real about what's happening here. Gord has Stage 4 GvHD of the Gut & now the Liver. He's on everything that he can be on to try & get it under control. In short, like in the movies - 'They are doing everything they can.' Now, I've seen Gord bounce back from some pretty major stuff, so I'm not giving up hope, and neither are the Drs, and neither should you. But lets focus our good energies even more on Mr High, shall we?